I haven’t really been able to sleep since my post the other day. I apologize for any grammar errors but i truly just wanted to speak from the heart. I did end up taking down my post regarding my 6 month post baby body. Sometimes what i think doesn’t seem to come out just right and i definitely didn’t mean to offend anyone in the least bit.

My 6 month post baby body had nothing to do with my body at all. That picture illustrated a new mom who was lost and had no confidence. My every moment was consumed by my son and work. I did absolutely nothing for myself and i felt lost. I was lost behind the scenes and had convinced myself that i was living and breathing for my baby. My whole world was my baby. I was getting up at 4am to work to provide for him and literally spent every moment he was sleeping working from home and juggling mom duties. I had absolutely no balance and i did absolutely nothing for myself.

I was occassionally working out but not like i needed for my mental health. For me working out is a necessity and i need to do it every day no matter what. Even if it just getting out of the house for a quick 30 minute walk i need it. At one time in my life i was on 6 different medications for depression, anxiety, sleep disorder,ect. You name it i had it, then i found exercise. For many years i went from doctor to doctor being prescribed one thing and then only to be prescribed another to offset the affects of another medication. Then i met exercise. Exercise is my anti depressant, it is my anti anxiety… it is my sanity. Some may thing i am extreme but that is totally fine with me because when i am working out it is my happy place. I feel like i am on top of the world and nothing can stop me when i am pounding pavement, spinning, or lifting weights. I never feel more confident then i do when i am working out. When i don’t workout my whole life seems to fall apart and i lose myself.

I was able to get off 6 different medications because i found my drug of choice, exercise. Whatever your thoughts are about my how i look at my body or what i do for exercise is your own opinion. I know for me when my mind is right and i am working out my body is right. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY BODY. when my mind is right my body is right. My mind is a direct reflect of what i am feeling on the inside.

so in ending this i just want to say that i am extremely sorry if i offended anyone with my photo it was not my intention at all. My intention was to show my confidence i have no because i am taking care of me. We all have our own internal struggles we deal and for me exercise is the answer.